Sometimes it’s very intriguing to find how relationship evolves and changes over time. Things and people that you may long find missing would suddenly appear and bring upon surprising elements to your life. A void in emotional turbulence is not evidence of real tranquility in one’s life. More than often it’s just laying dormant within oneself and would run amok to the tiniest gust of agitation.
Living in this city would prompt you to seek more material gratification to fill the vacuum of spiritual or emotional growth. With incessant exposure to the new and posh, you will find yourself pressured to keep up with the Joneses; and people who has low self-esteem would be very susceptible to this endless and mindless game of creating an avatar to claim an existence in this illusive world. The longer one stays in this state, the more disparity between the inner existence and the outer self. Sadly to say in this city, no one could truly escape this pervasive state.
If you ask me now what I want in life, I could no longer answer you without hesitation that I want a purposeful and spiritual life. Or perhaps I have been intoxicated by what the material world has to offer and no longer stand true to my origins. The fast pace of life really desensitize the senses and you no longer feel, you are just very focus to get from one point to another. You do not care much about others; you shove people around when you are in a hurry; you think you have more important things to attend to compare to others. Introspection is no longer a priority since everyone is only judged on their worldly appearance and actions.
You are just a speck of dust; literally, the only way you realize you even exist is when there is gust of wind to pick you up….
